With Eyes Wide Open

Is there anything else to write about this week besides the devastating earthquake in Haiti? With thousands upon thousands dead and untold numbers injured and displaced, it's hard for me to think of anything else when I'm dedicating my practice to doing good in the world. After all, that's what our yoga can do - change the world for the better.

Yesterday, I got on the Metro and picked up the Express, the Washington Post's commuter daily newspaper. The photo on the front cover was of a woman's face, smeared with ash and encrusted with blood. Tears welled up in my eyes, and I looked away immediately - disturbed, heart-broken, fearful. Did I turn away because the image reminded me of my own mortality? The possibility for tragedy every day of my life? Was it pain at seeing someone else in such suffering?

One of my favorite yogic goddesses is Kali, because she won't look away. No matter how ugly things get in the world (whether that's in our own psyches or the interaction between peoples), Kali is undeterred. She will gaze in love and transformative power at the things which cause terror, rage and despair.

What if we all could take that on, even just a little? We could sit and listen to a friend, lover, spouse or parent and truly just witness their experience without the need to fix, to get our own ego trip by "helping someone." We could hold someone while they weep or scream in pain without the platitudes of "It's going to be okay" that often soothe us more than the person we're with. We could witness someone's deep rage at injustice without their anger saying anything about who we are and what we're about. To be a deep witness means that we take the self out of the equation.

In one of my Body of Myth workshops titled Inanna's Descent, one of the main characters is Ereshkigal, the ancient Sumerian Queen of the Underworld. Similar to Kali, She, too, is a deep witness, listening to the laments and tales of all the souls who inevitably make their way to her kingdom. It's a compeling act and one not to be taken lightly. Yet, by invoking that power we can bring Divine Love into the darkest of moments, illuminating it all with a flash of compassion's lightning.

The final words of this post were written by a deep friend, mentor and spiritual guide along the path for many people: Donald Engstrom-Reese.

May our tears wash clean all that blur our vision.

May we again dare to dwell in beauty, balance and delight.

May we again dare to see with clear eyes and an open heart.

May our heart fires add flame to the Cauldron of Change.


 

3 comments (Add your own)

1. Lydia Thomas wrote:
I can't even begin to describe how you and your blogs continue to touch me. All I can say is Thank you.
Lyds

Fri, January 15, 2010 @ 1:02 PM

2. Kim wrote:
Your words reminded me of the words of a great songwriter.
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Thank U ( an excerpt by Alanis Morisette)

thank you India
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
how 'bout me not blaming you for everything
how 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
how 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how 'bout grieving it all one at a time
the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down
how' bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how 'bout not equating death with stopping
thank you India
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence.
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Imagine gratitude for feeling terrified; all-encompassing, joyfully embracing what is

Sat, January 16, 2010 @ 12:26 AM

3. Greg wrote:
Love this song - you played yesterday in class. It was amazing!

Thanks, Lyds - you're amazing!

Mon, January 18, 2010 @ 10:12 AM

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