History of a Devotee, by Neva Ingalls
Sunday, November 4, 2007
- Anonymous
To me yoga is a simple expression of the innate longing in every human
being to connect with “more” I may be presumptuous in making this claim
for all human kind, so I will simply say yoga is about my journey
toward the infinite, bigger than me, loving life force that made the
flowers and the stars and fairy tales and kisses and snow and lakes in
the summer.
I remember when I first recognized my separateness
from the energy that made me. I was 4 or 5 and I cried for hours. I was
stricken with grief. I lost something I could not explain to my
concerned family. After that it was a struggle to find a glimpse of the
magic feeling of union, but I attempted in my own way, though living in
fantasies
I first started to feel a connection to something
“more” again when I studied and performed ballet. There was some magic
in the beauty of the art and of the classical music which seemed
“above” humdrum life. I felt transported and I loved that feeling.
It
was always that illusive feeling I was reaching for. I was a seeker
from the beginning. Today I know where to find my home in the divine
and everyday is a new chance to connect. My home inside is found
through the roadmap of yoga. I have learned that the fuel will always
be my longing to return to that special place and my meager effort to
do so through asana, breath awareness, meditation. May we all always
remember that we want to go home. May we always remember HOW to go
home. Take the first step.
Anonymous devotee